Would you join me?

Brownpants, in English – on Tumblr.

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On blogging

I’ve had a blog before and was actually quite consistent at keeping it updated. Once, as an 18 year old cynic, I took it upon myself to electronically deconstruct my surroundings – from the eyes of a detached, misunderstood rebellious pastor’s kid with very little to actually lose in sneering at the customers I waited on, the teachers I endured as a high school senior, and the possibilities of life outside of my parent’s house. I think a couple of people may have actually found some of it interesting and I stuck with it awhile in some form or another, but I eventually moved out, lost regular internet connection, and went under the blogging radar.

I’ve tried blogging on and off since that time, but have always run into the problem of over-thinking two main areas: the potential audience and the actual presentation. Who is this blog for? Random other twenty-five year olds who may be similarly bewildered by life’s challenges and demands? Those who know me in real life and may find it interesting to see pictures of our family trips to the pumpkin patch? Someone who accidentally stumbled here while actually searching for an online vendor for brown pants?

And as importantly – what does this blog portray about me, as the author? Is it as cynical and aware of its own cliche as it should be, having again fallen in line with a slew of other blogs about very little at all? Or should it challenge me to articulate new ideas about what is happening, why it matters and where it leads to? Do these ideas even matter? And most importantly, does my tired sarcastic wit actually translate to black and white characters?

Thus the paradox. The cynical, self aware 18 year old simply added a few years to his age, grew leaps and bounds in responsibilities, and somehow acquired a high enough level of crippling self-doubt to even make something as potentially mindless as a blog actually work. It’s no way to be. Let’s move past this.

So, all said, here’s to a transition away from blogger to a platform and blog that I hope will become home to whatever it happens to be, for whomever happens to take notice – gramps, random friends, or those with a misplaced fashion sense (trust me, I can identify).

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